Lately I've found myself thinking about a lot. A lot about life, about my once "ideal" life. At the coffee shop I see many young fresh highschool faces. I was sweeping one day this week and overheard a couple of their conversations. It's so crazy to remember being that age and what was of such great importance at that time and how hardly any of those priorities remain. I see now what a complete different person I am, and in such a good way, yet I can honestly say I had some really awesome friends, both guys & girls alike. Not that I don't now, I just miss some of them and how tight knit we all were. I miss that sometimes.
I had so much planned out at that age. I would have honestly not seen myself here from that age stand point, yet I guess thats the way it goes. Although everything hasn't gone according to plan, or nothing like the plan to be quite frank, I can honestly say I'm happy. I love the people in my life, and how everything has gone for the most part.
After all this thinking I've been doing lately, I've begun to really see myself for who I am, my flaws, my strengths, and who I am as a person. It's crazy to think that in almost 22 years, I'm just now truly seeing myself from my own eyes. For awhile I was comparing myself, my life, and my accomplishments to others, which I found to be completely idiotic of me. No 2 lives are going to be anything remotely alike + one always compares their lowest to someone elses best. I'm happy with who I am, where I am, who's with me, and where I'm going. I've learned to let go of the what if's & buts, which were torturing and unbearable at times.
On another note: my bed is the most comfortable it has been in a long time & my eye lids now feel like they are lifting 5lbs each. That's my cue!
Also, if anyone is reading this please say a quick prayer for my mom. She's having difficulties with high blood pressure.
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