The Only 2 Men In My Life

C.S. Lewis
Brilliant mind.


Sufjan Stevens
Beautiful voice.

As much as I already love pipes and cigars, looking at that picture of Lewis makes me wish more than ever that I could sit with him in front of a warm crackling fire for countless hours of the night and listen to him spill and saturate me with all of his knowledge and wisdom on the mysteries of the world, while filling the room with the sweet smokey aroma of pipe tobacco and/or of a good cigar. My life would surely be complete.

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I've never fell in love with words the way I have with his. He pieces them together so perfectly like a puzzle and paints such a vivid picture with them. His brilliance is beyond obtainable. I'm currently hung up on his book Mere Christianity and can't stop re-reading each chapter and dissecting each paragraph for the life of me.

Stevens on the other hand..
well I'll just save you some time & let you listen for yourself:


Probably the most soothing voice on this side of the planet. I feel like Zach Braff at the very beginning of Garden State, when the plane is going through so much turmoil on the outside and on the inside is filled with utter chaos and every passenger is losing their mind, yet there sits Zach in complete peace haha. His voice is like heavy medication. Although, I must say I never thought I would be a big fan of the banjo, but that was before experiencing the peaceful ambience that results from Stevens and his own. That's some true talent.


To combine both of these phenomenal qualities into one man would surely break the mold. For now, they are the only 2 that occupy my day and I'm more than content with it. For now.

There is so much more to say.
So much more to write and discuss
but that is all that I'm bringing to
this dear blogspot. For now.
:)

Patience.

But if we hope for what we do not see, we wait for it with patience.
—Romans 8:25

The title is pretty self explanatory, I'm struggling with patience like never before and it can be pretty unnerving at times. Just as everyone else, I've always craved assurance, the feeling of just knowing that something is right, and the topics may vary but in this case there is one in particular. I finally have, what I believe to be this different knowing feeling, and as wonderful as it may sound, it really isn't. There is a right timing and place for everything and if either of them are off it becomes WRONG.

Right now, I would have imagined skipping around being happy just to have this assuring feeling but instead it's really quite frustrating! I start doubting myself, wondering if I'm really sure, analyzing the crap out of everything and then wondering if I'm just setting myself up for disappointment. Yeah, it's great. Weee.
I'm having to learn to just sit back, put it all in God's hands and not worry but trust him that he will handle everything and if this assuring feeling is actually as right on as it feels, then it will happen within the right timing & if not then something bigger and better will take it's place.

I was talking with a friend the other day and she turned on a song that isn't quite in my genre tastes but the lyrics were so right on my situation.

..And I have just googled the crap out of it and I can't even find the song nor the lyrics haha. Patience :) But anyways, the part that stood out to me went, "We speed up just to slow down." How true is that? We want to know how everything is going to turn out yet when the outcomes are unfolding we want everything to slow down that way we can enjoy it for longer. Or even relationships, we jump into things only to pull back the reigns in order to keep from diving head first into just a pile full of shallow emotions.

I discussed all of this stuff on my mind with my mom & it's really awesome because she has become like a best friend to me. She just listens and gives advice instead of having parental mode on lock 24/7. I love her and her encouragement, not to mention her wisdom gained from like experiences. She told me to just enjoy this time, wait & see, grow, and as always trust God in everything. And that's exactly what I'm going to try to do :)

Random Ramblings

This is going to be the most pointless entry I've ever posted and that's the best part. Right now I'm somewhat watching the Vice Presidential debate and loving every second of the personal commentary by my family. I seriously forgot how hilarious they are until now. My stomach is going to be sore tomorrow to say the least.

There are so many things coming up and so many things to look forward to!
I'm going to officially be 22 in a week from tomorrow! Crazyness. But I'm really looking forward to this next year, I honestly think alot of great things are going to come my way within that time :). So along with my birthday I'm going to be spending the day with my favorite girls all at once, so I'm pretty excited about that:)

I'm spending Thanksgiving this year in a log cabin in the Smokeys = STOKED! Not to mention the food is going to be beyond freakin' amazing. I probably couldn't be more excited about that than I already am. I can already feel my stomach drooping to the floor and the immobility that comes with it.

My career plans have made somewhat of a changed & once again I'm excited. I have this great feeling of sureness in every area of my life, it's refreshing.
Tomorrow Bridgette, myself, and hopefully Calie are going to carve pumpkins, or more so Bridgette will be carving and I will be failing miserably and laughing at myself. Afterward we are going to be going to Boll Weevil and then who knows!

Bright Move Of The Week: I left my straightener on while I was at work - 8 hours straight, came home and my room smelled like burned death. The plastic on the straightener melted off onto the carpet and if I hadn't gotten there just a bit sooner I'm sure the house would have been engulfed in flames. To top it off my mom goes out and buys all of this carpet cleaner thinking that it's just a stain haha. I tried to explain to her that the physical property of the carpet had changed, it's not removable but then I was reminded that my stubborness doesn't only come from my dad but my mother as well :) Anyhow I have to wake up at 4am to open tomorrow so I'm off!