So many updates within 1 week:
-I was officially certified monday
- Work has become my life but I'm enjoying it MUCH more than before
- I made 45 bucks in tips = awesome
- My brothers dog was sadly given away to a nice family in aiken today
- Unfortunately speed bumps were put in the road near my house
- & I made friends with a guy in the mafia..no but really, I did.
So i got my paychecks..even though I have yet to deposit them but I've already made up my mind what I'm doing with the remainder after the bills:
-car wash
-oil changed
-make up
-taking maxwell to arbys
-new jeans
I'm so stoked about autumn coming up!
Getting pumpkin spice back
today at work was the thing to set it off :)
I love cold weather, the warm colorful leaves, the smell of
of burning fireplaces, apple cider, and good spice candles! It's almost unbearable
I want it to hurry up.
But I got to cut this short since I'm waking up around 4:30ish :/ Got to open tomorrow at 5:30am
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Reflections & Rewinding
I completely take back the line where I said that I would have so much time to myself. I've been working so much lately & the time that I have off I'm either spending with my beau or thinking.
Lately I've found myself thinking about a lot. A lot about life, about my once "ideal" life. At the coffee shop I see many young fresh highschool faces. I was sweeping one day this week and overheard a couple of their conversations. It's so crazy to remember being that age and what was of such great importance at that time and how hardly any of those priorities remain. I see now what a complete different person I am, and in such a good way, yet I can honestly say I had some really awesome friends, both guys & girls alike. Not that I don't now, I just miss some of them and how tight knit we all were. I miss that sometimes.
I had so much planned out at that age. I would have honestly not seen myself here from that age stand point, yet I guess thats the way it goes. Although everything hasn't gone according to plan, or nothing like the plan to be quite frank, I can honestly say I'm happy. I love the people in my life, and how everything has gone for the most part.
After all this thinking I've been doing lately, I've begun to really see myself for who I am, my flaws, my strengths, and who I am as a person. It's crazy to think that in almost 22 years, I'm just now truly seeing myself from my own eyes. For awhile I was comparing myself, my life, and my accomplishments to others, which I found to be completely idiotic of me. No 2 lives are going to be anything remotely alike + one always compares their lowest to someone elses best. I'm happy with who I am, where I am, who's with me, and where I'm going. I've learned to let go of the what if's & buts, which were torturing and unbearable at times.
On another note: my bed is the most comfortable it has been in a long time & my eye lids now feel like they are lifting 5lbs each. That's my cue!
Also, if anyone is reading this please say a quick prayer for my mom. She's having difficulties with high blood pressure.
Lately I've found myself thinking about a lot. A lot about life, about my once "ideal" life. At the coffee shop I see many young fresh highschool faces. I was sweeping one day this week and overheard a couple of their conversations. It's so crazy to remember being that age and what was of such great importance at that time and how hardly any of those priorities remain. I see now what a complete different person I am, and in such a good way, yet I can honestly say I had some really awesome friends, both guys & girls alike. Not that I don't now, I just miss some of them and how tight knit we all were. I miss that sometimes.
I had so much planned out at that age. I would have honestly not seen myself here from that age stand point, yet I guess thats the way it goes. Although everything hasn't gone according to plan, or nothing like the plan to be quite frank, I can honestly say I'm happy. I love the people in my life, and how everything has gone for the most part.
After all this thinking I've been doing lately, I've begun to really see myself for who I am, my flaws, my strengths, and who I am as a person. It's crazy to think that in almost 22 years, I'm just now truly seeing myself from my own eyes. For awhile I was comparing myself, my life, and my accomplishments to others, which I found to be completely idiotic of me. No 2 lives are going to be anything remotely alike + one always compares their lowest to someone elses best. I'm happy with who I am, where I am, who's with me, and where I'm going. I've learned to let go of the what if's & buts, which were torturing and unbearable at times.
On another note: my bed is the most comfortable it has been in a long time & my eye lids now feel like they are lifting 5lbs each. That's my cue!
Also, if anyone is reading this please say a quick prayer for my mom. She's having difficulties with high blood pressure.
Tuesday, August 5, 2008
Down Time & Wholeness.
I would be lying if I said this whole blogspot ordeal was completely new. I've had this thing for over a year and a half now yet always manage to write in it once or twice, slack, forget about it, and 6 months later randomly remember that I have completely abandoned this thing. But for now, (at least I'm hoping) to keep this up!
I realized looking ahead and in the present moment, it seems as if things will never change, or as if they are doing so at such a slow pace. Yet, when looking back in the rear view, everything has changed drastically just within a couple of weeks! I'm hoping to capture where and when exactly these changes take place :). We will see.
This weekend my brother came down from Atlanta and luckily I had it all off from work. I cannot describe to you the fulfillment, the complete wholeness that I feel when all of my family is together. It's such a good feeling. Even when one person is missing, it doesn't feel quite complete. It's awesome. I thank God for this weekend, I needed it!
This week is the start of a lot of my own time, down time. Everyone is starting back to full time work or school, and lucky me I don't start back classes until October 1st :), although I do still have my job. At first I got somewhat sad thinking how summer is coming to a complete close, after all summer isn't the same without friends and family. Yet, I now have more than enough time to do the things I need & want to do. I can now finish reading all the books that I have began, more time for painting, more time for writing, and more time for reflection. There are some things I need to get together, some things I have to do for myself and hopefully this time will be perfect for just that :)
I realized looking ahead and in the present moment, it seems as if things will never change, or as if they are doing so at such a slow pace. Yet, when looking back in the rear view, everything has changed drastically just within a couple of weeks! I'm hoping to capture where and when exactly these changes take place :). We will see.
This weekend my brother came down from Atlanta and luckily I had it all off from work. I cannot describe to you the fulfillment, the complete wholeness that I feel when all of my family is together. It's such a good feeling. Even when one person is missing, it doesn't feel quite complete. It's awesome. I thank God for this weekend, I needed it!
This week is the start of a lot of my own time, down time. Everyone is starting back to full time work or school, and lucky me I don't start back classes until October 1st :), although I do still have my job. At first I got somewhat sad thinking how summer is coming to a complete close, after all summer isn't the same without friends and family. Yet, I now have more than enough time to do the things I need & want to do. I can now finish reading all the books that I have began, more time for painting, more time for writing, and more time for reflection. There are some things I need to get together, some things I have to do for myself and hopefully this time will be perfect for just that :)
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